User talk:TheEileen/Oct 2010
October 2010
22 Oct 2010
I updated the list on 19 Oct, but didn't finish the wiki until today. No posted projects but some moving around. I've done some F2 poetry and some F2 Spaldings. Luckily Amy was able to show me what I was doing wrong there although I missed it so that I kept thinking it was the render page not working.
Weather is cooler now, and I like it. The leaves are starting to be gorgeous. I don't remember this one stretch of trees, all black branches and DARK red (nearly blacky-brown) leaves underneath with lemon yellow main leaves showing so you get the yellow with the red/black shadows. So very very cool. Then a stretch of trees with the black branches but light, light green leaves and it looks like they are sort of fuzzy. Wonderful.
Work is actually okay right now. I am finished with that data crunch entry. Caught up with protocols (now I've jinxed it for sure - grin). I am being really good about not just physically and mentally but kind of psychologically giving up my need to control how the other two do their job. So, all sorts of things are or are not getting done. I don't assign, I suggest. Sometimes I ask "I'm too busy, will you take it" and sometimes yes, sometimes no. I do not think I'm burying stress underneath or anything. I really do feel like I am managing Christopher's mental philosophy of "oh well, they are like that and it isn't my job to fix them." Doesn't mean I'm not annoyed but I don't have that factor of "and I must change them so they don't annoy me anymore". That is so not going to happen.
So, my foot is still fractured but healing. I have to keep my foot wrapped for at least three more months, but we saw some regrowth on the x-ray. I can't sit the way I like, but I'm adapting. I have good shoes that I found on a good deal on line. So I am happy about that. Did my yoga today for the first time in ages and that felt good. I want to note, no problem with my shoulder or neck. Those stretches are working well also. I had to get all four of my spark plug electrical thingies replaced and that was a bit of $$ but still not as much as a new car. All in all, looking good. Let's see how long it lasts - grin.
14 Oct 2010
Updated the last of the wiki today which was only two projects moving around. Weather lovely and sunny in the am but cooler with then rain-rain-rain in the afternoon and evening. Perfect curling up with cozy fire and good book weather or ... put on comfy sweats and sit in front of computer weather. Which is weird since I spent ALL day in front of the computer doing nothing but entering data. My one break was to read two more research protocols. One about adult male circumcision. :shakes head: The stuff my jobs ends up being about ... is weird.
13 Oct 2010
Updated the list yesterday. Did the major shifts on the wiki today from the main to the body and the new projects on the main AND updated the posted which was cool since we had four posts in the last month. Just as I try to grab hold of new routines to calm me down and put me back on schedule, I go off it.
A lot of personal drama with my friends - illness, death (expected and unexpected), family pets, jobs, etc. etc. So a lot of being there for other people, trying to help, and such. Less time here. And as usual, when all that's going on, I just veg at computer games where I don't have to think that hard.
I don't seem to have mentioned/realized that part of what I did on my three weeks of vacation was go through all my old games. I swear I remember typing this up, but it's not on these blogs so I'm not sure where I did it. I pulled out all these old computer games to see if I still wanted to play them. They all triggered my sort of OCD thing. I found that if I played and didn't keep copious notes, I'd get annoyed eventually at repeating the same actions several times as I wouldn't remember their effect or I'd forget where I was, lose the thread of the game, etc. But after some time of keeping the copious notes, I'd get annoyed about having to write everything down and the game would be a chore and I'd think "oh, I'm playing this all the time I'll remember", stop keeping the notes and fall back into the first annoyance. Good, aren't I - for setting myself up with a no way to win this scenario and always annoying the heck out of myself? So, I thought I'd see how it went.
The results were quite interesting to me. Playing these old-fashioned games with no keyboard shortcuts and complex/complicated commands (and linking to the complications of playing many games on the xbox), I realized that they were in fact just too complex and annoying to play. I was NOT interested in completing them. I could with a clear conscious donate them to the library, etc. And I did. But at the same time, the complexity of the games made me realize that about 70% of the games I would desultorily pop open on Facebook, because of my need to "complete" things, these games were too simple and had not enough complexity. There was no challenge or interest in them. So I quit them. I quit all but about 10 core games and dumped a lot of the time-based ones precisely because I would think "I'll pop in and do one thing and the need to 'complete' everything before moving on would hook me in for hours of something that didn't really interest me but which I'd do because of this OCD nature I have. So, I stopped all of them and continue to try to keep the number of games low and keep only those that are truly interesting to me in some way. It didn't free up as much time for DP as I thought it would, for reasons I think I spelled out in June and which I don't want to retype here but may link one day.
The weather is beautiful and cool. My foot is still a big problem which caused problems with my back. I've been pretty good with my weights but SUCK at my yoga which I basically haven't done since June when we discovered the foot problem. I have done some very minimal tai chi and tried to increase the walking once I had the foot wrapped/strapped all the time. I go back to the podiatrist next week after my x-ray today to see if my foot is still fractured. I am hoping not (although I still have pain) because if so - then I have to wear a cast for at least two more months. I have put back on about 1-2 inches of the weight I lost by being good with my walking and yoga. Not being able to bend your foot/ankle certain ways is so very constricting, and I'm not good at coming up with alternative activities like I should.
Work somewhat less stressful because I managed through a combination of some good advice from my therapist, my friend, and a very interesting co-worker, to come to a place where I've actually let go of some of the personnel stressors. My therapist still wants to know about me trying to switch jobs but that is actually MORE stress than staying where I am right now.
The office sharing isn't horrible, but it isn't great. Too small an office, too conflicting of personalities. We just don't mesh well. But I'm managing / coping with less trouble than I anticipated which makes me happy. I've been really getting into my D&D gaming with friends and those RL social activities are picking up. Oh, kind of out of nowhere my friend John found this lovely bathroom cabinet/sink combo on sale, and it fit my bathroom and my budget so I got it. A few weeks back I gave in and hired the handyman back, mainly to deal with the electric light fixture that had been just wires hanging out of the wall since my vacation in June (one of the frustrating things), and my broken closet door, and my broken stair tread and the day before he showed up I realized that something was wrong with my dryer - he fixed all that in less than 30 minutes, so I had him put the cabinet/sink/fixtures in, and it looks really nice. I just need the lighting and mirror and Yee-Haw, that bathroom will be done. I am so very happy about that. I still have tons of work around the house to do, but that was a biggie to cross off. And it didn't cost me as much as I thought. I'll try to finish updating the wiki on Friday.
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