User talk:TheEileen/Oct 2009
October 2009
06 Oct 2009
Udpated list and wiki today. Five moved total but no posted. I did just a touch of foofing last week but this weekend was VEN Board meeting and follow-up. We did some more policy review and such on line and so I felt really overwhelmed with that sort of thing.
The weather is beautifully sunny and cool. I have been generally well except for the rash! Yes, I got contact dermatitis again but now I *really* know what it was. Last time I thought it was my new sheets and/or my new detergent. NOPE. It is the shampoo they use at the salon I go to. Ha! It was just a cheapish hair cutting place, but I love to have my hair washed. But I checked my calendar and last time I got this all over my face by my hair line I had gone there also. So, since I didn't like how she cut my hair anyway ... grin ... no more going back there.
I have been good about my yoga and my weights. I haven't added back in those two shoulder things and so far, I haven't re-injured or stressed my shoulder. I'm so excited by that. I still have twinges and the hand / carpal tunnel thing seems to be growing but jinx or not, I think I'm balanced to how much I'm in pain and stressed. Meaning, no more than I am used to / can handle, it is just kinda newish stuff as other stuff fades, this comes up. Oh crikey, I just realized that I didn't do one thing I promised my boss by tomorrow. I wouldn't normally but it has to do with feedback on my team workers and I do want him to have it. Gotta motor to work on it.
13 Oct 2009
Had to work late and then too tired to do anything but sit and stare dazedly at the tv. No list, wiki, or update.
17 Oct 2009
Updated list but not wiki. Only one item moved anyway. Felt like I snuck this in amongst the various RL related activites. Some very nice (baked muffins), some boring (finally finished cleaning the fridge and other related fall cleaning chores), and just generally hard to concentrate when at the computer so not doing as much.
Weather definitely fall. LOVING the colors. Mount Ranier was so gorgeous whenever it was clear enough to see and the leaves are turning beautifully as I see maples everywhere and the yellows and oranges and reds contrasted against all the green is so beautiful! I am realizing that a major part of my sleeping problems (haven't been able to go to sleep on time or sleep deeply for weeks) is linked to my lack of massage. I have been good and consistent on my weights and walking but not yoga. I have got to make this my habit again. I need the stress relief.
21 Oct 2009
Updated list and wiki. One item moved to PPing and three posted. So very tired. Must re-read No Stupid PP questions about getting Ibsen loaded back up and then setting up Vol 2 instructions and putting that puppy back out there.
Tired, but had my massage today. Karen was finally over being sick, back from "vacation", and over being sick again. Ha. One of my "newer" friends wants to start going out every Tuesday night with a group from work. I am both happy and not with this concept. A - so much less time at home and thus less time for DP. B - I only really want to hang out with 2 out of the 3 people. Evil Grin.
Board work at DP is taking a bit of a back seat to Board work on Library Guild AND Board work on the healthcare non-profit. Oy Vey. It's great to be useful but I am seriously overextended. I didn't realize how much the healthcare thing and Obama stuff would mean a major ramping up of stuff for that non-profit. So tired, so very tired. Work is hmmm, so-so. I don't think I'm stressing out as much about so many things but the simple fact is that I am receiving 200 emails a day and able to deal with about 60. Of that 60, I have to DO something (write a report, research an answer, process a request) on 50 of them. That is about 3-4 hours a day. That's on top of all the other work that isn't even related to what is coming in via email. I cannot keep up. My co-worker pointed out that I am consistently a month behind in my mail. A MONTH. So, that *IS* stressing me.
27 Oct 2009
Updated list and wiki. One item moved on page and one posted. Still tired. Still haven't read the PP questions to figure out how to upload Ibsen. Will seriously think about it today.
It is finally feeling like 'winter'. The other day it was cold, you could see your breath, and it just had the chill "boy I wish I had a hat and gloves" beginning. I think I figured out that part of my sleep problems were related to not getting my regular massage. The timing seems about right. True or not, since having my massage, I'm sleeping better and not being so <zombie voice on> I can't sleep <zombie voice off>.
I've seen the doctor about my foot. I have a consult to the Ortho clinic and from there I hope to the Physical Therapy. The Ortho people are generally not that interested unless you are an amputee. I seem to have some sort of ligament / bone thing happening. Very ow-y to walk most of the time now. And my contact dermatitis came back. So not what I thought it was. I think I know now what it is, so I've gotten rid of that out of the house to not, I hope, have even a chance of it returning. Trying to not scratch or meddle with my face has been basically, a losing battle. I have calamine lotion on now (why did I not think of this sooner) and that is helping tons.
Work still stressful, although I have caught up some which makes me feel better. My new system of how to track what I've sent out so I don't lose track is not perfect but good enough to help, I think, relieve some of my stress. I tried doing one yoga routine in my office on Monday, as I knew I wasn't going to have time when I got home. I was able to do it! And I felt a ton better. I've been walking some too, as much as I can with this foot thing. Anyway, I'm taking my yoga mat to work now, so that I can do more/other routines (more floor oriented) and see if I can try doing that to keep stress low, health high. Once I realized that I was constantly falling into getting on my computer at home to do some work and instead doing a mindless sort of tetris game ... which I only do if I'm feeling really brain-drained elsewhere in my life, I'm trying to stop that drain.
For example, yesterday morning, I had just finished one big thing in mail, an incident where I had to get all the facts together and make a report in writing and enter it into a national tracking database and tell the participants what I expected them to do and then I had to get on a national training call/live conference. I'm on this when I get an Instant Message from one co-worker asking for input on one topic. Less than a minute later, I got another Instant Message from the other co-worker asking for help/response on their topic (different from the other one), then I got a page to call the Director's office about the incident, and then my cell phone rang from a researcher who wanted to ask a question unrelated to the other five things also going on. Fricking/fracking .. I felt like I was being pulled in five directions at once. Literally. My head just began to throb. I need people to not need me so much. And every time I try to pull back, it all just falls apart. As I've said to my therapist, sometimes I spend the extra 20% of energy and time now because I've seen in the past that if I just let it go, it still ends up in my lap and now I have to spend 50% extra time and energy. My boss says he's going to help, I honestly don't see how. Part of this is, basically, I can't see sloppy work done and I can't do a "half-assed" job. Once you involve me, it will be done right. Darn it. I've been trying in this one project to generally keep my mouth shut, not try to steer, and just be supportive. The annoying thing is that I am managing that but by the sheer fact that I'm showing up to the meetings and I have the most historical knowledge, there is being a slow shift in "Eileen will keep us on track and Eileen will know the answer to all the questions" that even with me not proactively trying to, is happening. And since the end result will benefit so many people, I find I simply cannot just refuse to go to the meetings or refuse to answer questions. Sigh. Still, I'm trying not to get massively overwhelmed. We'll see how I do, hmmm?
And now back to Eileen's Talk