User talk:TheEileen/Jul 2008
July 2008
07 Jul 2008
Updated list and wiki finally. Some movement and one posted project. I am doing the final page check of my text files and then I'll be uploading my next project to PM which I CP'd all by my lonesome. A mere 18 months later and voila! :rolls eyes:
Foot and ankle, still a bit of a problem and likely to be for a few more weeks per everyone who as ever also twisted or sprained an ankle. I still need to have it up regularly, I still can't sit in the way I'm most comfortable. But I'm mostly back to normal with my routines. I even carefully went to the gym yesterday and did my exercises (but none involving my ankle). I should re-scheduled another massage, but as nice as he is and he is nice, he's also oddly confrontational and usually about me and my body. We'll be chatting and I'll mention that I can or usually cannot do something due to my illness or whatever and he'll start basically arguing with me about it. I find that I end up trying to make him understand, since he seems so reasonable otherwise, but in this area he will not be reasonable and I forget he won't be so I find myself locked into what is basically a power struggle and so end up getting annoyed and frustrated with him. Which is a great way to leave a massage, hmmm? Stewing about the conversation you had with the masseuse? Especially since I've twice just tried NOT talking and saying "Oh, I want to not talk so much this time". Then he starts asking questions and I can't get past my upbringing that I'm the rude one if I don't go along with HIS need to talk.
And it annoys me because it harks back to "I don't respect you enough to accept what you are saying". When someone suggests something to me and I respond that I tried it and it didn't work, the response back of "oh try again" or the most annoying, "you must have done it incorrectly so try again the way I'm telling you" irks me something fierce. I have just told you it doesn't work for me. Telling me the above just means you can't respect me or my own knowledge of my body. If I suggest something to someone and they tell me it doesn't work for them, I acknowledge it and if I may think they did it "incorrectly", then I ask them, "so how did you do {action}?" and if I hear in the sequence something that I think could be done "better" or differently, I'll say "oh, you know if you ever want to try it again (thereby respecting that they know their own body and it's response), you may want to skip that step where..." or "If you think about it again, you may want to start with the 2nd step and then do the 1st step. That's the way I did it and it worked for me when I did it that way..." Acknowledging that I'm only able to speak from my experience.
I can't drink tea. It makes me vomit. For some reason, it always has. I like the smell, can't drink the drink. And inevitably I get people who ask "have you tried this tea? that tea? brew it this way? blah, blah" and I now respond with "I don't want to drink it badly enough to risk vomiting again - it isn't worth it." and I smile at them as they look at me blankly because, in reality, they didn't think an inch outside their own head. "I can drink it," they think, "so everyone else must be able to. It's just a failure of will on your part that you can't." Both of my grandmothers always put a glass of iced tea at my plate on the table for 20 years of my life, never once really registering the fact that every single time, I gave it back and reminded them "I can't drink this". It just devalues you as a person that people won't bother to register what you are saying. I don't need to grief. Drat, I just realized I've talked myself into trying to find another masseuse. Now I have to see if my lady is back in business or I'll just have to find my own.
11 Jul 2008
Updated wiki and list. Some movement and two posted. I'm finishing off my content review and hope to maybe even upload this weekend if a) I can log in and b) fireftp works this time.
Firstly, I want to mention that the weather has been quite nice. I was reading last year's entry and I like that I mention the weather every once in a while. I like comparing what I said then with now. So, it's been mostly cool and overcast and everyone was all "oh it was better last year" but I see by my own notes that it wasn't really. This week last year was hot, hot, hot, but had just turned so. We are still in upper 70/low 80 days, with some haze in the morning or high clouds and not burning off til mid-day. Then it is still dropping to upper 50/low 60 at night. I am sitting here comfortably without a fan or anything. I can still have my covers on.
I have learned one "trick" which was an aha as soon as I heard it. If it is hotter outside than inside your house (no matter how hot), do NOT open your windows. This only lets the hot air in as it will always move into cold areas. I used to keep my windows open all day in a hope for cooling off breezes, but come true summer (late July, all August) we get NO breezes here. So, on the two truly hot days we had about a week, two weeks, three weeks? ago (where it was upper 80 and low 70 at night) I kept all the blinds down and windows shut and the house which might have climbed to 90 was at a "temperate" 85 which was not cool but definitely COOLER than outside.
The ankle is much better with still some small sparking and swelling. I'd meant to stop by PT all week, but never managed it. Today we did rounds and ended up in Podiatry! Huzzah, I asked the doc: "how long can I expect this to bug?" Answer: no less than four weeks, six weeks to 12 weeks is normal. (YIKES). 2nd question: "The front of my foot/ankle gets sooo tight and painful. Is this, 'stop using it pain' or 'work through it pain', I'm so bad at telling." Answer: Work through it. The front gets stiff because it's taking more of the load to hold the ankle in place, particularly when you are just sitting. Walk through it and try to get back to your normal routine. If you do any exercises that involve jumping or kicking, wrap your ankle. "I do yoga, carefully and work out in the gym." Answer: Great, keep doing that. You might want to wrap you ankle and just pay attention to over stressing it, but that's what you should be doing.
Yay! Now I feel a lot more comfortable. I really do suck at telling "this pain means you are damaging things, stop" vs. "this pain means I'm working/tired but I'm not damaged". I was /am already back to my normal 5000-6000 steps a day. I'll be going to the gym tomorrow, ankle firmly wrapped.
15 Jul 2008
Updated list and wiki with no movement except two (yay) posted projects. I wanted to mention the heat and the beautiful butterflies and the dragonflies that like to hover around me when I water in the am. For future reference, I had little spiders (only 3 or 4) in the house in June for a while, but they are gone now. The d*** birds still chirp and chirp and chirp and my memory is the darned things are normally gone by now, but who knows. I had this jay like bird (in shape and SOUND) land on the back porch while I was there and just sort of hang out and pick at things in a way birds normally don't around people. I was actually kind of freaked out. Alfred Hitchcock has a lot to answer for.
20 Jul 2008
Updated list and wiki, no movement. I was home sick and so chatted on jabber and got some great input into why my images were so huge. Now I have that to work on but I still think I'm actually pretty close to uploading this project.
So I got some sort of viral gastroenteritis that hit on Wednesday. Started to feel sick right as I left work but I needed relief for my spasming shoulder and headed to the mall for a quickie massage. By the time I got there I was re-thinking it but figured my tummy ache would fade anyway but my neck would hurt longer. Right after the massage, I started hurling. Oh joy. And hurling. And hurling. I could tell other systems wanted to get into the act and managed to slowly stagger to the not-so-near nearest bathroom. Just in time. One of the guards walked me to my car, which I allowed as it seemed the only way to stave them off from calling an ambulance. I figured later on I must have looked really horrible, they kept saying "are you sure you don't need medical assistance?" Anyway, my whole body let loose again in the parking lot. All I can say is a) thank goodness no one was really around or paying any attention and b) thank goodness I happened to have several towels in the car, so I didn't stain things too badly. I spent the next two days at home in recovery. I think a combo of extra ibuprofen in the system affecting my tummy and the too-long constipated thing (did you know the stuff in your intestines can start to rot in there and breed bacteria that causes, yes n,d,v) . Better by today, much, much better. I even did my exercises with my ankle well-wrapped.
24 Jul 2008
Updated list and wiki, minimal movement but two posted projects. No time to work on content provision, lots of work at home and work to do, so concentrating on that. Plus, have committed to smooth-read an interesting book on the 1906 San Francisco earthquake. I don't know a lot of detail about it and reading the descriptions that involve buildings and streets I know, is a little shivery-making.
I continue to heal. Did my exercises again today. I forgot to mention that last week's little bout caused my rock-hard tummy to go back to normal, and no exaggeration-I measured, I lost three inches on my stomach and two inches on my waist. That wasn't fat or even water, it was all that crap to be literal in my system finally getting gone. Whew! I really do feel much better, more energetic, less headachy. Ah the bowels - the reason man does not mistake himself for a god (I keep forgetting who said that.) I'm even keeping up on all the posts! It's not so difficult because it's actually fairly cool here now (in low 70's) and over cast and it really cools down at night. Bliss.
29 Jul 2008
Updated list. Will update the wiki on 8/1/08, with a little movement in each round including one posted project. Have gotten about 1/3 of the way through the smooth-read and should really figure out when it's due. I always forget that part and then I'm late. I'm liking it and I have found several issues (all in spacing). Lessee, doing stuff at home, lots of stuff at work. Did some chores today and worked on requested stuff and mentoring. Am still keeping up with posts. I do so and it does impact work a little but in a positive way. I may spend about 20 minutes less time on work but when I'm working I'm in a MUCH better mood and more able to concentrate. I finally completed three things last week I'd not managed to get to for four weeks AND I was out two days at training. Good training and I plan to incorporate it and hope I can do so sooner rather than later. Okay, tired now.
And now back to Index to 2008