User talk:TheEileen/Feb 2008
February 2008
02-03-2008
Updated list and wiki today. And I'm sick again. I could feel it coming on all day yesterday and I'm miserable today. Sore throat, stuffy head, aching eyes and muscles, chills, fevers, oh it's a joy. I ended up going all the way through every page I did on English Hymnal as I realized I'd done the meter wrong once I hit the index. Then I had to do the same again today for Der Ring as I realized I'd missed something there also. I am not following my own advice and closely reading the project comments before plunging in. At the moment, I've only two items going in F1, mostly I'm concentrating in F2 on those projects created in 2003 as I said last month. I do still work on my other sets - two french dictionaries, one french correspondance, and Am Miss of course.
I got my car back, and it was fine for the week and then the day I drove it down to Tacoma again (in other words, on the highway for more than 10 miles) it went wonky again. Yes again. I swear it's the timing belt, and this time I'm not dropping it off and leaving, I'm making them drive around with me and we'll see what we see. This is ridiculous! My hot water heater stopped working, and honestly I'm glad it did because I called my friend John over to show me how to light it. I looked at and just couldn't follow it. So he came the next day and wouldn't you know it - it was leaking. Again. So, we re-lit the pilot and then figured out the leak. I didn't happen to have teflon tape in the house and so John said, "You need to call the plumber". So I did. Only to find that yes, all he did was wrap teflon tape around the leaking bit. So John who had done this "I wash my hands of you" gesture and tone of voice, which I took to mean, this is beyond my fixing, I now realize was being pissy. We went shopping immediately after he came over: So what we couldn't stop at the hardware store and pick up some tape? He was dead on for where the tape would go. Now I'm angry with him. That was $60 out of my pocket he darn well knows I can't afford, so why didn't he say "let's pick up the teflon tape and try it?" He has been intermittently happy and angry and every single time he gets angry about something, he takes it out on me. He is so freaking passive and then gets all "you should have known what I meant" about it. He doesn't want to turn into his mother and yet he certainly does exactly the same things. He got angry with me the time before this because I pointed that out to him. But I'm working on saying what I feel and think and not trying to "spare the other person" which only makes me feel worse. It isn't the whole "I'll say something harsh to you just to hurt you thing" which I feel some people cop out of therapy with. But more like, when I think "that was a hurtful thing to say" I am learning to say that out loud to the person who hurt me. They never will change their behavior if they don't realize what affect it's having. And they won't know the affect until they are told. And if they don't change, then maybe they wanted to hurt you and that is information you (I) need.
02-10-2008
Updated list on the 7th like I should but didn't get to the wiki today. Too tired, too busy, too sick. However, LOTS of movement. Five projects posted, huzzah!
This is day 10 of the cold, so I'm basically at the end of it. Stuffy head and sniffly, but generally by energy is back, etc. My voice is still hoarse, we'll see if I get laryngitis, which sounds bad but rarely hurts. Work is doing okay, things are coming along okay and I'm keeping on top without blowing up. I'm thinking that maybe I am doing a little too much "explaining" to people in an attempt to head things off that I think MAY be coming at me. Instead, I should write up my response and then WAIT until it shows up. Jeff and I discussed this a little, too much of everyone in a room saying something should be done and no one saying "I'll do it". And when you point out it needs someone taking responsibility, everyone else wants to assume that since you pointed it out, you'll do it. Had that issue with the Director about the recycling. Both Sweden and I think it is a facility issue that we are giving advice on, the facility wants to make one or both of us the project managers and make us responsible. I sort of fight with Michael because he sees some of this as "yes, take it then it'll get handled and done right", but my response is "no, it isn't our job and we should stop taking on things just to get them done. This lets the other people slide out of doing what is THEIR job." I recognize the impulse. I know I have at least three things that I do that aren't my job at all but I do them because it helps me later on in other ways and they are of interest to me. This stuff isn't (in the same way) and so I am just getting annoyed at the lack of standing up and taking responsibility.
02-19-2008
Updated list on the 15th but there was absolutely no movement at all so didn't do here. Updated list and wiki today with one posting. I've been a little sick but am better. Working on projects and reading forums. Very laid back. Tired need to sleep but can't. Just catching up on things.
02-22-2008
Updated list and wiki; a little movement. One posted project. Am working consistently on my four or five projects in F2. I think I need a new F1 project and may take on Jose as no one else is touching it for some reason.
My car had to have its radiator and catalytic converter replaced. I can only hope this fixes my problems. We shall see. Tired, worked out today, so tired. Heard from Amy - I hope the quizzes get posted some time soon. But in any event, we done good work. Yaaaawwwwnnnn. Bye.
02-27-2008
Updated list yesterday and wiki today, when I had some time. Work is very stressful right now and I just come home and collapse. It's also allergy starting time, so I've constant major headaches, which will resolve, but I have to live through them. Migraine-like headache in the am, with intense nausea and heaving, and sounds hurt and etc. etc. I could manage a little rice and broth at lunch and after walking in and standing in the cold air and rain in the afternoon, I'm mostly better. I've so much to do in RL that DP is taking a bit of a back seat this week or so. Oh well.
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